The Difference Maker.

Something massive has been a weight on my heart. How we receive and perceive the ways of the Lord. It's real! Like oh I got a problem, God will take control. It's not that easy when the problem gets bigger and consistent. The problem only becomes another problem on top of the first problem you already had. It's so real. The last month have been real for me. The struggle to love, to follow, to remain faithful (to Christ), and continue to trust him has been a non-stop BATTLE ! It's been such an unfair  BATTLE.  The kind where the opponent has a machete and I got a blow up sword. The Battle against the enemy has been one filled with:                 You can't achieve                 You won't                 You aren't The story of my life seems to have a close comparison to the story of Job. A man who lives an innocent life with a wife and children....

The human race should be ashamed of ourselves sometimes. I say this because because we tend to speak the word of God and adore his love; however, this quickly fades when life seems to be full of blessings.   It makes no sense, after you begin to receive God's daily salvation. You slowly stop falling to your knees to thank him. Stop worshiping him often. Stop posting inspirational Instagram post about how good He is to you. This doesn't mean you aren't a Christian, but your need for God seems to sway in and out.   I just am amazed by the way people talk about Jesus. I see this through social media so much. So many people have hit rock bottom in their life, so the need for the Lord increases. When life gets better, God slowly fades out of the picture. Instantly, the weaknesses of the human race makes an appearance. God tends to makes his way back into your life.  God always allows us to feel the frailty of human love so we'll appreciate the strength...

I feel as though I am a 22 years old, I struggle to keep up with today's world.  I just got the memo that those chokers were in style. Or was that only for 2016? I struggle keeping up All these sayings of a new year and changing things about yourself. Why? I don't understand why someone would wait until the new year to change something that they don't like. Or why wait until the new year to start a new diet? Why wait for a new year to "get right with the Lord"? All these things just make me wonder. Why are there more post about how 2017 will be better for you?  Did God not send his son down on Earth to walk this world, and take on the bad for 2015, 2016, 2017....? Did he not bare the same of your sins? Shouldn't a new year, be another year to elevate yourself in God's kingdom and to reach out and create disciples? The apostle Paul went to churches to tell them the good news. Of course they had questioned when he left, so he wrote them back ...

Wear a uniform. Tuck in the shirt. Wear a belt. Never forget your name tag. Closed toe shoes only. Clock in and out on time. Talk to people with respect. Understand the mission. Understand that you have superiors. Listen to your boss. Don't show up late without a good reason. Don't call out sick if it isn't important. What if I am actually sick? It's about teamwork. Who is apart of the team?  Don't say things on social media. Don't post on social media. Don't talk about work outside of work. If you use your phone on the clock then you are in trouble. Greet your boss with a smile. Always carry yourself respectful outside of work. Don't hang around someone older than you, they don't have good intentions. This isn't a job but an investment. Then how come I only make minimum wage?  You work hard, then you will be rewarded. Don't be a bad seed. Don't have a vision because you aren't really important you are just a little man. Don't wor...

I am a struggling Christian with a struggling Lordship to a powerful God. I am a 22 year old woman, who is struggling to keep up with the daily grind. I am a daughter who tends to forget to be thankful. I am a struggling sister, who forgets to say I am proud of you. I am church member who forgets to tithe every Sunday. I am a loved girlfriend who forgets to be more appreciative of the little things. I am a struggling friend who breaks commitments at times. I am truly just a HOTMESS! I also am a daughter of Christ who is forgiven..... I want to be perfect in every area of my life, so that means I buy whiteboards to keep track with my weekly bible verses and weekly "to do list." I am the girl that buys two planners for a school year and plans everything out. I tend to spend more than I have because I need to do all things and be involved with everything. Sometimes I feel that when I confess with my mouth that I am broken maybe a week later I could get it together. Jokes on ...

There's nothing greater than learning to ride a bike - now maybe graduating Highschool or college, meeting your soulmate, or putting on your onyx ring, or purchasing your first car, or owning your first home. Those things could be better than riding a bike but to a child. Learning to ride a bike is probably the most gratifying thing ever in this world. I was about 5 or 6 when I learned how to ride a bike. White bike with pink details on the front and the seat with those sparkly tassels on the ends. My bike also had training wheels. One on each side! I remember riding that bike like a pro! However, I mist give credit where credit is due, Thank God for training wheels, Amen! Without them my balance would have been completely off and riding down the sidewalk would be nearly impossible. That moment when you are extremely good (or decent in my case) at riding a bike with training wheels and when those things come off, instantly we graduate into big kid world. We can handle it! That...

I remember Junior year of Highschool deciding I wanted to run track. That's funny because I thought I was going to be a track star one day, I thought I had speed and I can keep up with all the other girls on the team. One day for practice, we had run 300 meter dash. (The only thing I truly enjoyed about track was running those corners/curves, boy you couldn't tell me I wasn't a true track star) in reality I was terrified of track, especially the meets, I was a hurdle jumper and the day of the meets I would have serve panic attacks and say I couldn't do it. However, as soon as I would hear the gun fire, I would take off running!  Now that I ran off on a tangent. Back to the hot day of track practice. Oh my, it had be 85 to 90 degrees outside that day. And well I decided to wear a hoodie and spandex for practice. I remember our coach was being intense on practice that day. Man, I wanted the coach to be proud! That wasn't the case. I remember running a 300 dash fo...