Chapter Two: I am a Human Being

I remember Junior year of Highschool deciding I wanted to run track. That's funny because I thought I was going to be a track star one day, I thought I had speed and I can keep up with all the other girls on the team. One day for practice, we had run 300 meter dash. (The only thing I truly enjoyed about track was running those corners/curves, boy you couldn't tell me I wasn't a true track star) in reality I was terrified of track, especially the meets, I was a hurdle jumper and the day of the meets I would have serve panic attacks and say I couldn't do it. However, as soon as I would hear the gun fire, I would take off running! 

Now that I ran off on a tangent. Back to the hot day of track practice. Oh my, it had be 85 to 90 degrees outside that day. And well I decided to wear a hoodie and spandex for practice. I remember our coach was being intense on practice that day. Man, I wanted the coach to be proud! That wasn't the case. I remember running a 300 dash for practice, finishing m, and hyperventilating! Yup. I had an asthma attack on the track field. Instead of saying I need to take a break and get water, I kept pushing because I didn't want to complain, I didn't want to seem weak rather strong. Why do we as people do that. Why do we always look for the moments of strength and approval, instead of saying we are weak. We are a Human Being. 

Why boast about all that we think we can handle, instead let's boast of how weak we are and how we need to feel empowered and brave because that's who God called us to be. We can only do that when we are so desperate for him. When we want to be done with the situations of our life that seems to have a bottomless pit. The situations that put us in a dark place. The place of shame and self loathing. 


I pray that today we say that we are so weak that Jesus can make us strong. The Holy Spirit can make us stand tall. God leads us be strong and courageous because we can't do it without Him or His Grace that is given. No more bottomless pits and no more places of sorrow. We will overcome it all the way because Jesus over came the Grave and rose on the third day. Good good news, We are nearing our third day when we truly get to see God's grace for what it is: God's Richest At Christ Expense! Just like Mary was not focused on the grace of God that she couldn't see him once he rose, let's not be Mary, but let's be weak and broken 

 2 Corinthians 12:9 | "But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly of my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may rest upon me."










I am a Human Being. I am ashamed of the bottomless pits of my life where I believe that the enemy has found his way in. I am weak in my prayer life sometimes. I am weak in my lusting, not of sexual thoughts but those of this world. Wanting the better things in my life or wanting a better relationship life. Being stronger than I believe I am. To carry the burdens that are out of my control. The need of actual control over my life. I need Jesus to be in control of all of those things, because I can't be in control of it by myself. After all I am only human. 

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