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This means WAR

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Something massive has been a weight on my heart. How we receive and perceive the ways of the Lord. It's real! Like oh I got a problem, God will take control. It's not that easy when the problem gets bigger and consistent. The problem only becomes another problem on top of the first problem you already had. It's so real. The last month have been real for me. The struggle to love, to follow, to remain faithful (to Christ), and continue to trust him has been a non-stop BATTLE ! It's been such an unfair  BATTLE.  The kind where the opponent has a machete and I got a blow up sword. The Battle against the enemy has been one filled with:                 You can't achieve                 You won't                 You aren't The story of my life seems to have a close comparison to the story of Job. A man who lives an innocent life with a wife and children....

Live Freely.

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If you asked me how my day was going yesterday, I would of made the face of a snarling wolf. Today was not the best day in the world, but as I think back on my day I can tell you where I went wrong in the day. First off I wore the world's most uncomfortable shoes for walking across a college campus. Next I styled my hair wrong, so I looked as if I was the missing cousin of the Bride of Frankenstein. Yikes! They day continues to unravel by ignoring the comment that my mother made. "Start the day off with the Lord, don't let the enemy steal your joy...... Yeahhhhhhh. That's where I went wrong. I just completely let my heart and my patience's for the Lord flake away. Probably shouldn't have done that. Instead I was in a bad mood for the rest of the day, I realized I left my laptop at home and I had ranch dressing coating my entire lunchbox. I was ill tempered and anxious. Now that's a life of a Christian girl that doesn't get talked about. We only ...

Part-time Christian in need of a Full-time Savior

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The human race should be ashamed of ourselves sometimes. I say this because because we tend to speak the word of God and adore his love; however, this quickly fades when life seems to be full of blessings.   It makes no sense, after you begin to receive God's daily salvation. You slowly stop falling to your knees to thank him. Stop worshiping him often. Stop posting inspirational Instagram post about how good He is to you. This doesn't mean you aren't a Christian, but your need for God seems to sway in and out.   I just am amazed by the way people talk about Jesus. I see this through social media so much. So many people have hit rock bottom in their life, so the need for the Lord increases. When life gets better, God slowly fades out of the picture. Instantly, the weaknesses of the human race makes an appearance. God tends to makes his way back into your life.  God always allows us to feel the frailty of human love so we'll appreciate the strength...

New Year, Same Jesus!

I feel as though I am a 22 years old, I struggle to keep up with today's world.  I just got the memo that those chokers were in style. Or was that only for 2016? I struggle keeping up All these sayings of a new year and changing things about yourself. Why? I don't understand why someone would wait until the new year to change something that they don't like. Or why wait until the new year to start a new diet? Why wait for a new year to "get right with the Lord"? All these things just make me wonder. Why are there more post about how 2017 will be better for you?  Did God not send his son down on Earth to walk this world, and take on the bad for 2015, 2016, 2017....? Did he not bare the same of your sins? Shouldn't a new year, be another year to elevate yourself in God's kingdom and to reach out and create disciples? The apostle Paul went to churches to tell them the good news. Of course they had questioned when he left, so he wrote them back ...

Chapter: Power

Wear a uniform. Tuck in the shirt. Wear a belt. Never forget your name tag. Closed toe shoes only. Clock in and out on time. Talk to people with respect. Understand the mission. Understand that you have superiors. Listen to your boss. Don't show up late without a good reason. Don't call out sick if it isn't important. What if I am actually sick? It's about teamwork. Who is apart of the team?  Don't say things on social media. Don't post on social media. Don't talk about work outside of work. If you use your phone on the clock then you are in trouble. Greet your boss with a smile. Always carry yourself respectful outside of work. Don't hang around someone older than you, they don't have good intentions. This isn't a job but an investment. Then how come I only make minimum wage?  You work hard, then you will be rewarded. Don't be a bad seed. Don't have a vision because you aren't really important you are just a little man. Don't wor...

Chapter Unknown: My Hot-mess-ness

I am a struggling Christian with a struggling Lordship to a powerful God. I am a 22 year old woman, who is struggling to keep up with the daily grind. I am a daughter who tends to forget to be thankful. I am a struggling sister, who forgets to say I am proud of you. I am church member who forgets to tithe every Sunday. I am a loved girlfriend who forgets to be more appreciative of the little things. I am a struggling friend who breaks commitments at times. I am truly just a HOTMESS! I also am a daughter of Christ who is forgiven..... I want to be perfect in every area of my life, so that means I buy whiteboards to keep track with my weekly bible verses and weekly "to do list." I am the girl that buys two planners for a school year and plans everything out. I tend to spend more than I have because I need to do all things and be involved with everything. Sometimes I feel that when I confess with my mouth that I am broken maybe a week later I could get it together. Jokes on ...

Chapter 3: Just Because You Love Flowers, Doesn't Mean You Are a Gardener

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Becoming a planter and having a green thumb isn't something easy to do. I remember house sitting for a family last year. They said that there is a garden that I need to water twice a day, especially, the greens that they worked so hard. The commitment to house sitting that I strive to be was a very hands on learning experience. Every morning before the sun peaks, you need to water the plants or else the leaves on the vegetables would burn. To be honest, the first day I failed to water them by noon, and later on that evening the tips of the vegatable leaves were light - colored brown.... NO! NO! I didn't kill the plants but obviously I didn't water the garden correctly. Lesson learned. The next day I got it right. I watered the plants on time and so on and so on through the entire week. I did good. Food for thought [punny ] This reminds me of how Jesus tells a parable of the farmer sowing seeds. The way he places his seeds in the paths and on the rockys and on good so...