The Difference Maker.

Something massive has been a weight on my heart. How we receive and perceive the ways of the Lord. It's real! Like oh I got a problem, God will take control. It's not that easy when the problem gets bigger and consistent. The problem only becomes another problem on top of the first problem you already had. It's so real. The last month have been real for me. The struggle to love, to follow, to remain faithful (to Christ), and continue to trust him has been a non-stop BATTLE ! It's been such an unfair  BATTLE.  The kind where the opponent has a machete and I got a blow up sword. The Battle against the enemy has been one filled with:                 You can't achieve                 You won't                 You aren't The story of my life seems to have a close comparison to the story of Job. A man who lives an innocent life with a wife and children....

I remember Junior year of Highschool deciding I wanted to run track. That's funny because I thought I was going to be a track star one day, I thought I had speed and I can keep up with all the other girls on the team. One day for practice, we had run 300 meter dash. (The only thing I truly enjoyed about track was running those corners/curves, boy you couldn't tell me I wasn't a true track star) in reality I was terrified of track, especially the meets, I was a hurdle jumper and the day of the meets I would have serve panic attacks and say I couldn't do it. However, as soon as I would hear the gun fire, I would take off running!  Now that I ran off on a tangent. Back to the hot day of track practice. Oh my, it had be 85 to 90 degrees outside that day. And well I decided to wear a hoodie and spandex for practice. I remember our coach was being intense on practice that day. Man, I wanted the coach to be proud! That wasn't the case. I remember running a 300 dash fo...