The Difference Maker.

Today is the 1 year anniversary of my blog! Ahhh I am so thankful for today, for this blog and for the impact it has had on my life. When you behold the gospel EVERYTHING changes. So today instead of telling you how he was the difference maker in my life, I figured I could show you! Some of these pictures are a little over a year ago but all still applies. I am not ashamed of the person I use to be, instead I rejoice because of how far Jesus Christ has brought me.  These two three pictures are from Winter of 2013 and Jan of 2014.... Yup. Take it all in with me. I wasn't happy with myself so I did things that I shouldn't have. I was sneaking into place that were 21 and up, I was hanging out with the wrong crowd of people. I was always looking to have fun, but was it truly fun, NO. This is a mask, this is me turning a blind eye on Jesus.  So let me tell you what happens when you turn a blind eye on Jesus, you stir yourself into an uncharted playground, where sin and idol...

You know that saying people would say "Jesus take the wheel," have you ever thought about what that means. Well I figured I could provide a good example:  Now that you got a good laugh, lets really talk. I remember growing in people would say that saying and I never really understood what it meant. So now that I am older, I use to say "Jesus, take the wheel" I remember saying it when I was stressed out or when a friend of mines was acting inappropriately. When we think of such a saying, we want God to have control because we lack all control. But shouldn't God always be driving the car in your life? And what does that look like when you truly let Jesus drive? For me that means I need to surrender. I am still allowing myself to put other things in God's place. I am driving to a destination that I chose to worship other than God. Simply, I am idolizing something that isn't God. You will always be driving on a never ending road when you chose s...

So this past summer I got the privilege to be apart of something bigger than myself. CAMP! Ahhh I could make a separate blog page dedicated to all things camp; however, this isn't what drives me everyday, Jesus does. Anyway so camp, I was the head counselor of Camp One (the best summer ever, best camp one ever!) and it was awesome because we themed our camp around the sea and sailing, it was called "Camp One Cruise Line," and a gift that we gave every camper of the week was spyglasses like those little telescopes. I thought it was pretty cool! Spyglasses that we gave out to the campers were mini and you could see things out in the distance... kinda sorta. Well what an actual spyglass does is magnifies things in the distance. Like looking ahead... Jesus gives us this opportunity, to look forward to the life we have with him, to the the things he has planed for us. You know sometimes when a spyglass gets blurry, you must turn it, or READJUST it to see things clearly. S...

For about a week or so, I tussled with myself and God on posting something on today. Every January 5th, I will be constantly reminded of all the horrible things that took place. Every January 5th, I will look at a picture of me searching for something that I thought was greater than God. Every January 5th, I will cry a little bit harder. And every January 5th, I will thank God beyond words. January 5th was just like any ordinary day, except I decided to dance with the enemy a little bit harder. I played in the uncharted terriority, the forbidden playground. Let me tell you...when you do stuff like that, you shouldn't expect a good outcome. My outcome won't be something I talk about, but let's talk of the aftermath of that outcome. In the beginning:  "Empty screams.Tearless cries. What is happening to me?"  That's what I said to myself days after events took place on January 5th. (Actually that's what I wrote in a journal) I was losing a sense of myse...

For weeks now I've been contimplating on taking a walk down memory lane, but God and my mom helped me. They showed me that, I've come a long way and there is nothing to be ashamed of, instead, there is soooooo much to be proud of!  When I lived in Wilmington, it was different no one knew who I was, where I was from, what I do, and it seemed like a fresh start. I mean look at the pictures, I look extremely happy! In reality, I was drinking everyday after 12, I was hanging out until 3 am. three or four times a week. I wasn't in a good place in life. I met people who weren't good influence in my life. The picture with the huge body guard, yeah I have no idea what his name is and I just decided to take a picture with him because he let me into a 21 and up bar and I was 19 at the time. I am not ashamed of what I did. I mean I didn't completely shut Jesus out of my life, but I wasn't living a life to please him. I was going to church, but I was also...

PRAYER... When people come together to pray they make it a time when they long or need the comfort of Jesus the most. When you are at your weakest, you look to God and ask him for his love and mercy. However, when you are at your highest, who are you thanking? Some people say I worked so hard for this, or I earned this.These are questions that I fumbled with in my life. I was always praying to God in my time of struggle or when I needed "faith" the most. In reality I used to only call on the Lord when I felt weak because I knew that he would always be there. However, I never thought about him when I received the benefits of life or when I achieved something awesome. Simply because I didn't accept him as my father and I chose to "kinda" follow him. Today... I am weak and humble to the Lord because with God I am made whole. I am overly annotied with the love of Christ. My heart welts with emotion for him! I make him my first, middle, and last. So when I pray ...

So much has happened in this week and may I add that it isn't even over yet. This has been one of the most emotional, overly extended weeks that I have experienced in a really long time. When you look at my calendar for this week every night I was busy doing something, except for Monday. However, in that week I've experienced the power of prayer, the joy of love, and people uniting to give thanks. As the year is coming to an end, I finally realized that I am my life like a celebration, especially, during this time of the year. God sent his one and only son to die on the cross for us... Is there really even a reason not to celebrate that? Jesus died for our sins, but with this sacrifice also brought eternal love to us all. I am so blessed to celebrate the LOVE that is in Christ our Lord. Romans 8:39 and nothing will truly separate me from the love that is him, that I strive to receive each and every day. I am so passionate and full of celebration this year during this seas...