January 5th.
For about a week or so, I tussled with myself and God on posting something on today. Every January 5th, I will be constantly reminded of all the horrible things that took place. Every January 5th, I will look at a picture of me searching for something that I thought was greater than God. Every January 5th, I will cry a little bit harder. And every January 5th, I will thank God beyond words.
January 5th was just like any ordinary day, except I decided to dance with the enemy a little bit harder. I played in the uncharted terriority, the forbidden playground. Let me tell you...when you do stuff like that, you shouldn't expect a good outcome. My outcome won't be something I talk about, but let's talk of the aftermath of that outcome.
In the beginning:
"Empty screams.Tearless cries. What is happening to me?"
That's what I said to myself days after events took place on January 5th. (Actually that's what I wrote in a journal) I was losing a sense of myself, losing a sense of my purpose, and losing faith in God. Then something extrodinary happened. Everyday He started revealing things to me. People came to pray with me, show me their love.
I begin to see something happening in myself. My heart begin to soften, my anger became calm, and my fire started burning brighter for Christ. Today, on January 5th, I stumbled across a picture that is literally worth a thousand words, and all my words point directly toward God.
Isaiah 41:10 | "Do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you, I will help you, yes, I will uphold you with My righteous right hand."
The sculpture is a picture of one man leaning over a rock pulling a man in the water out. Wow! Wow! Honestly what I have to say about that. This artwork represents my life and my journey with Christ so many times. This represents January 5th for me. This is D-Day for me. The day I witnessed the glory of God. (Now I process differently, so I did cry while writing my blog.)
God is on the rocking pulling me out the water of sin. He saved me, God told me that if you take my hand I promise you something better than whatever you are searching for. Instead of searching for Idols that are lust, money, excitement. I AM.
You know how people have that moment of clarity in their life, (yeah that did happen for me) but what did happen was beyond incredible. I got to fall to my knees, literally.
So every January 5th, I will look at a second picture. A picture of that simply says, "trust me with your whole heart, and I will save you." Every January 5th, I will feel so poor, but be so rich with the unfailing love of Christ. Every January 5th, I will tell God thank you for saving me. Today isn't a special day because I made it one, today is a special day because it was God's plan to make it special. He wanted me know when you have Christ, you have EVERYTHING.
Proverbs 3:5-6 | "Trust in the Lord with all your heart,
and do not lean on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge him,
and he will make straight your paths."
Don't not cry and morn on January 5th, instead pray and surrender your life over to Jesus. Watch what plans he has for your life. Thank you God for another day that I can serve you, that I get to act as your hands and feet while I am on Earth. Thank you for allowing me to spread the gospel of your God work. Let me fall to my knees because you are greater than everything. Thank you for your unfailing love
January 5th was just like any ordinary day, except I decided to dance with the enemy a little bit harder. I played in the uncharted terriority, the forbidden playground. Let me tell you...when you do stuff like that, you shouldn't expect a good outcome. My outcome won't be something I talk about, but let's talk of the aftermath of that outcome.
In the beginning:
"Empty screams.Tearless cries. What is happening to me?"
That's what I said to myself days after events took place on January 5th. (Actually that's what I wrote in a journal) I was losing a sense of myself, losing a sense of my purpose, and losing faith in God. Then something extrodinary happened. Everyday He started revealing things to me. People came to pray with me, show me their love.
I begin to see something happening in myself. My heart begin to soften, my anger became calm, and my fire started burning brighter for Christ. Today, on January 5th, I stumbled across a picture that is literally worth a thousand words, and all my words point directly toward God.
Isaiah 41:10 | "Do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you, I will help you, yes, I will uphold you with My righteous right hand."
The sculpture is a picture of one man leaning over a rock pulling a man in the water out. Wow! Wow! Honestly what I have to say about that. This artwork represents my life and my journey with Christ so many times. This represents January 5th for me. This is D-Day for me. The day I witnessed the glory of God. (Now I process differently, so I did cry while writing my blog.)
God is on the rocking pulling me out the water of sin. He saved me, God told me that if you take my hand I promise you something better than whatever you are searching for. Instead of searching for Idols that are lust, money, excitement. I AM.
You know how people have that moment of clarity in their life, (yeah that did happen for me) but what did happen was beyond incredible. I got to fall to my knees, literally.
So every January 5th, I will look at a second picture. A picture of that simply says, "trust me with your whole heart, and I will save you." Every January 5th, I will feel so poor, but be so rich with the unfailing love of Christ. Every January 5th, I will tell God thank you for saving me. Today isn't a special day because I made it one, today is a special day because it was God's plan to make it special. He wanted me know when you have Christ, you have EVERYTHING.
Proverbs 3:5-6 | "Trust in the Lord with all your heart,
and do not lean on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge him,
and he will make straight your paths."
Don't not cry and morn on January 5th, instead pray and surrender your life over to Jesus. Watch what plans he has for your life. Thank you God for another day that I can serve you, that I get to act as your hands and feet while I am on Earth. Thank you for allowing me to spread the gospel of your God work. Let me fall to my knees because you are greater than everything. Thank you for your unfailing love
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