The Difference Maker.

Something massive has been a weight on my heart. How we receive and perceive the ways of the Lord. It's real! Like oh I got a problem, God will take control. It's not that easy when the problem gets bigger and consistent. The problem only becomes another problem on top of the first problem you already had. It's so real. The last month have been real for me. The struggle to love, to follow, to remain faithful (to Christ), and continue to trust him has been a non-stop BATTLE ! It's been such an unfair  BATTLE.  The kind where the opponent has a machete and I got a blow up sword. The Battle against the enemy has been one filled with:                 You can't achieve                 You won't                 You aren't The story of my life seems to have a close comparison to the story of Job. A man who lives an innocent life with a wife and children....

Wear a uniform. Tuck in the shirt. Wear a belt. Never forget your name tag. Closed toe shoes only. Clock in and out on time. Talk to people with respect. Understand the mission. Understand that you have superiors. Listen to your boss. Don't show up late without a good reason. Don't call out sick if it isn't important. What if I am actually sick? It's about teamwork. Who is apart of the team?  Don't say things on social media. Don't post on social media. Don't talk about work outside of work. If you use your phone on the clock then you are in trouble. Greet your boss with a smile. Always carry yourself respectful outside of work. Don't hang around someone older than you, they don't have good intentions. This isn't a job but an investment. Then how come I only make minimum wage?  You work hard, then you will be rewarded. Don't be a bad seed. Don't have a vision because you aren't really important you are just a little man. Don't wor...

I am a struggling Christian with a struggling Lordship to a powerful God. I am a 22 year old woman, who is struggling to keep up with the daily grind. I am a daughter who tends to forget to be thankful. I am a struggling sister, who forgets to say I am proud of you. I am church member who forgets to tithe every Sunday. I am a loved girlfriend who forgets to be more appreciative of the little things. I am a struggling friend who breaks commitments at times. I am truly just a HOTMESS! I also am a daughter of Christ who is forgiven..... I want to be perfect in every area of my life, so that means I buy whiteboards to keep track with my weekly bible verses and weekly "to do list." I am the girl that buys two planners for a school year and plans everything out. I tend to spend more than I have because I need to do all things and be involved with everything. Sometimes I feel that when I confess with my mouth that I am broken maybe a week later I could get it together. Jokes on ...