The Difference Maker.

Today is the 1 year anniversary of my blog! Ahhh I am so thankful for today, for this blog and for the impact it has had on my life. When you behold the gospel EVERYTHING changes. So today instead of telling you how he was the difference maker in my life, I figured I could show you! Some of these pictures are a little over a year ago but all still applies. I am not ashamed of the person I use to be, instead I rejoice because of how far Jesus Christ has brought me.  These two three pictures are from Winter of 2013 and Jan of 2014.... Yup. Take it all in with me. I wasn't happy with myself so I did things that I shouldn't have. I was sneaking into place that were 21 and up, I was hanging out with the wrong crowd of people. I was always looking to have fun, but was it truly fun, NO. This is a mask, this is me turning a blind eye on Jesus.  So let me tell you what happens when you turn a blind eye on Jesus, you stir yourself into an uncharted playground, where sin and idol...

You know that saying people would say "Jesus take the wheel," have you ever thought about what that means. Well I figured I could provide a good example:  Now that you got a good laugh, lets really talk. I remember growing in people would say that saying and I never really understood what it meant. So now that I am older, I use to say "Jesus, take the wheel" I remember saying it when I was stressed out or when a friend of mines was acting inappropriately. When we think of such a saying, we want God to have control because we lack all control. But shouldn't God always be driving the car in your life? And what does that look like when you truly let Jesus drive? For me that means I need to surrender. I am still allowing myself to put other things in God's place. I am driving to a destination that I chose to worship other than God. Simply, I am idolizing something that isn't God. You will always be driving on a never ending road when you chose s...

So this past summer I got the privilege to be apart of something bigger than myself. CAMP! Ahhh I could make a separate blog page dedicated to all things camp; however, this isn't what drives me everyday, Jesus does. Anyway so camp, I was the head counselor of Camp One (the best summer ever, best camp one ever!) and it was awesome because we themed our camp around the sea and sailing, it was called "Camp One Cruise Line," and a gift that we gave every camper of the week was spyglasses like those little telescopes. I thought it was pretty cool! Spyglasses that we gave out to the campers were mini and you could see things out in the distance... kinda sorta. Well what an actual spyglass does is magnifies things in the distance. Like looking ahead... Jesus gives us this opportunity, to look forward to the life we have with him, to the the things he has planed for us. You know sometimes when a spyglass gets blurry, you must turn it, or READJUST it to see things clearly. S...

For about a week or so, I tussled with myself and God on posting something on today. Every January 5th, I will be constantly reminded of all the horrible things that took place. Every January 5th, I will look at a picture of me searching for something that I thought was greater than God. Every January 5th, I will cry a little bit harder. And every January 5th, I will thank God beyond words. January 5th was just like any ordinary day, except I decided to dance with the enemy a little bit harder. I played in the uncharted terriority, the forbidden playground. Let me tell you...when you do stuff like that, you shouldn't expect a good outcome. My outcome won't be something I talk about, but let's talk of the aftermath of that outcome. In the beginning:  "Empty screams.Tearless cries. What is happening to me?"  That's what I said to myself days after events took place on January 5th. (Actually that's what I wrote in a journal) I was losing a sense of myse...