The Difference Maker.

For weeks now I've been contimplating on taking a walk down memory lane, but God and my mom helped me. They showed me that, I've come a long way and there is nothing to be ashamed of, instead, there is soooooo much to be proud of!  When I lived in Wilmington, it was different no one knew who I was, where I was from, what I do, and it seemed like a fresh start. I mean look at the pictures, I look extremely happy! In reality, I was drinking everyday after 12, I was hanging out until 3 am. three or four times a week. I wasn't in a good place in life. I met people who weren't good influence in my life. The picture with the huge body guard, yeah I have no idea what his name is and I just decided to take a picture with him because he let me into a 21 and up bar and I was 19 at the time. I am not ashamed of what I did. I mean I didn't completely shut Jesus out of my life, but I wasn't living a life to please him. I was going to church, but I was also...

PRAYER... When people come together to pray they make it a time when they long or need the comfort of Jesus the most. When you are at your weakest, you look to God and ask him for his love and mercy. However, when you are at your highest, who are you thanking? Some people say I worked so hard for this, or I earned this.These are questions that I fumbled with in my life. I was always praying to God in my time of struggle or when I needed "faith" the most. In reality I used to only call on the Lord when I felt weak because I knew that he would always be there. However, I never thought about him when I received the benefits of life or when I achieved something awesome. Simply because I didn't accept him as my father and I chose to "kinda" follow him. Today... I am weak and humble to the Lord because with God I am made whole. I am overly annotied with the love of Christ. My heart welts with emotion for him! I make him my first, middle, and last. So when I pray ...

So much has happened in this week and may I add that it isn't even over yet. This has been one of the most emotional, overly extended weeks that I have experienced in a really long time. When you look at my calendar for this week every night I was busy doing something, except for Monday. However, in that week I've experienced the power of prayer, the joy of love, and people uniting to give thanks. As the year is coming to an end, I finally realized that I am my life like a celebration, especially, during this time of the year. God sent his one and only son to die on the cross for us... Is there really even a reason not to celebrate that? Jesus died for our sins, but with this sacrifice also brought eternal love to us all. I am so blessed to celebrate the LOVE that is in Christ our Lord. Romans 8:39 and nothing will truly separate me from the love that is him, that I strive to receive each and every day. I am so passionate and full of celebration this year during this seas...

I won't rant about why I haven't been blogging, instead I will say what I have been doing. I have been reaching out to others and letting the word of God be known. An awesome feeling when you can tell someone all the amazing things of our God. However, today I blog about what it looks like to face your fears. A couple of days ago, my online course assigned an assignment on a very tough topic, something that has a lot of meaning behind it for myself. I remember coming back from the gym, pumped and then I get this mood-killing assignment due on the last day of class. First thing I did was cry because I didn't know how to handle it, I didn't understand why this topic seems to become a reoccurring topic in my life. The bible says in Philippians 3:13-14 " forgetting what lies behind and reach toward what lies ahead, press toward the goal for the prize of the upward call God in Christ Jesus." forgetting what lies behind and reaching forward to what lies ahea...